I am destined to go against the grain. It is an uphill battle to challenge and conquer what the mainstream deems appropriate or normal. Just as I was told growing up when I would rarely get a C on a report card - "you're not average." This, as with anything else is a state of mind, which like anything else, if programed in at an early age will be ingrained in the mind and remain prevalent throughout one's life unless it is stricken with something so overpowering to the mind, body and soul it shakes the…Read more

The Future has finally arrived and it is a beautiful display of horrible things that come for you when you are at your weakest.  You refuse to give in yet you are not willing to fight any harder than you need to in order to survive the dispair.  It is grim, but nothing to compare to Post-Apocalypes.  It is the beginning of the end of everything you know and love in favor of a glimpse at the impossible that you might find at the edge of darkness is the brightest light.  You will not see it with your eyes…Read more

Shrouded in a cloud of darkness is more than just what becomes me, it is me. The fiber of my being is blackness, endless darkness from birth. My peaks are heaven, my valleys hell and I dwell somewhere in between life and death. I see the light across a vast plane of existence and seek to bring it to you through music, an epic war in a black hole where everything is nothing and the beginning is the end. This is a space opera that transcends alternate realities while embarking on everlasting…Read more

I will speak my mind and show you those of us who cherish free thought will not just sit back and let the sheep continue to drag us down. Just because some view something as sacred doesn't make it so, it too shall stand up to scrutiny or fall under the pressure of dissection from within. For far too long the loud voice of faith has drowned out the unimpressed and indifferent muttering of the voice of reason. If this continues soon it will be to late for us to fight back as we will be engulfed in the…Read more

You assume that rhyme and reason are defined by god and heaven. Nature and science are based in rhyme and reason, not fantasy and fable. No one knows what happens after death and to proclaim to is nothing more then speculation based on superstition and fear. The mind is more powerful then you give it credit for and just as people see jesus in a piece of toast there are those conditioned to see "heaven's gates" in a moment of massive trauma. I have heard this explained by both religion and science in various…Read more

A mutant and a medical marvel:  Acute Sinusitis at 11 - 2 emergency surgeries to remove infectious pus from my brain through a hole in my eye. Totaled 2 cars in high school. Lived a very fast life, soaked it all up with experiences you could not possibly imagine with things and people you probably could not conceive. Unknowingly poisoned by a friend with enough liquid acid at a party to go on an infinite trip. I jumped out of a moving car and ran under a bridge to hide from aliens. Got hit by a car in a…Read more

Beyond Beyond is the destination at the end of the trip that is more of a quest into the unknown just past the furthest you ever could possibly imagine you would dare to venture.  I like to live there in a dwelling made of fire and ice with lightening for a roof and thunder for the floor.  The four elements in a whirlwind of destruction is the entertainment in the living room where blood covers the walls like crimson nectar with bits and pieces of flesh for pulp.  I sometimes turn my head around backwards…Read more

Some hip hop heads say I am not Hip Hop. Some goths say I am not Gothic. I say I am everything and nothing, the past and the future, the negative and the positive, love, hate, heaven, hell, god, demon, life and death. I see the darkness in the world because it is all around me, it surrounds me in time and space. The music I hear in my head will always be dark, melancholy and epic. A master storyteller with a wild, ethereal imagination of boundless proportions was born. When I was a kid listening to…Read more

There is nothing more beautiful then clouds on fire in the sunset. Even a mushroom cloud is an exquisite thing to behold given the right setting, that being minimum safe distance or better yet in high definition 3D. They hang in the air burning in all of their glory, yet with no pain, no suffering at all. They are not like us, we seek a purpose for existence, while they simply exist. There is no alternative or thought process and some days they do not exist, at least not in our plane. Mother Nature…Read more

What is your truth? Who are you really when the doors close and the lights go out? We all have parts to play, but are you always acting? I would like to think that more often than not, people are real. However, I have experienced far too much to the contrary to say that there is any validity to that thought. I have actually known more people that have no idea who they are inside their own skin. How could this be? I thought to myself and occasionally inappropriately outspoken, yet nonetheless…Read more