I know it has been a long time and it pains me to think about it when I can't avoid it.  I think there are times in everyone's life when their dreams take a backseat to their reality.  It isn't pleasant and often feels quite depressing, but it is an inevitability we cannot ignore.  We have to fight for our dreams, they will not just rest on our shoulders and make themselves obvious when we have dreamed long enough.  I had to come to this realization once again as I break out of this 2+ year slumber.  There…Read more

Some hip hop heads say I am not Hip Hop. Some goths say I am not Gothic. I say I am everything and nothing, the past and the future, the negative and the positive, love, hate, heaven, hell, god, demon, life and death. I see the darkness in the world because it is all around me, it surrounds me in time and space. The music I hear in my head will always be dark, melancholy and epic. A master storyteller with a wild, ethereal imagination of boundless proportions was born. When I was a kid listening to…Read more

Some people are strange, others are odd. Many think these terms are interchangeable, but I see a difference. I believe the Odd are at least a bit more unique rather then just a set of quirks. It is the collective of oddities that parts these to persona's of abnormality. I submit that I am Odd in the sense that I recognize that as a person, you are who you say you are if you live life true to yourself. I am the combined elements of nature and time, the nexus of an intergalactic vortex that shakes the…Read more

Does everyone truly have their cross to bear? It seems as though there has been a flurry of crosses throughout hip hop and music in general as if it is the thing to do, a trend or fad. Truthfully, this might not be far from the truth. The idea of flaunting how much money you have, or had rather, by paying tribute to a supposedly divine martyr, a selfless soul who died that we might live. It is absolutely brilliant to have captivated so many for the past two thousand years. The problem is that this is…Read more

I feel the from the energy of the sky above down to the tips of my damaged nerve endings as it courses through my arms and enters my hands. From there, it singes the tips of my fingers as I strike each key of ivory. Thus begins the quest to conquer another distant land. These are the backdrops and the settings of wondrous things and fantastic adventures. The paths carved out from wastelands breathe life into a dead soul and bring forth a life force unseen until this very moment in time. The days of…Read more

Since the beginning of recorded history, mankind has made the universe his own and out of this arrogance, there was "God." To this day the practice of worship has lived on through man. Even now we brace for a storm called Ike after suffering a few short years ago from one named Katrina. There is a Man in our moon and the suns rays Smile at us to brighten our day. Our children are raised by inanimate objects with human Faces that Tell stories of valor and triumph over evil while overcoming impossible…Read more

The Darkest Hip Hop Album Ever Recorded?

I don't know and I really don't care, that is not the point and the darkness is a product of me through no fault of my own. These are just the words I have heard from critics, friends, listeners and fans. It is what it is and that's just how it's supposed to be, what is meant to be. This is no attempt to "be" anything. I am morbid by nature and my heart has become blackened over time. This album chronicles the horrid visions that over came my existence in all…Read more

This just in, Chicago rapper Etare Neged has defied death yet again, this time surviving an extremely rare form of cancer: nasopharyngeal (the demon) carcinoma. Diagnosed during Thanksgiving of 2002 after a multitude of tests and examinations, he underwent 4 months of rigorous treatment culminating in 8 weeks of intense radiation therapy to the head, neck and face. At several points treatment became so intense that his flesh began to melt away, causing a number of complications, which left him clinging to…Read more

You can check out any of my songs or chronicles to find out what I am about, but in a nutshell, I am about opening minds to discover an alternate reality. Too many of us are following the paths set for us by others whether they be in the government, religion, society at large and I think more of us need to carve our own paths and discover what the world has to offer. I believe in absorbing everything around me and formulating my creed on a combination of all, instead of being shackled into one mode of…Read more

I know I am not yet there, but I feel I am on my way. My life has been filled with love and hate, pain and pleasure. "The Introduction of Mau Fatt the Rotgut" is a journey down the dark path of purification by pain. When I use the term "god" it refers to the conceptualization man has created. I believe in nothing as a whole, yet everything omnipresent and all encompassing, positive and negative energy that surrounds us all every moment we exist. I need not give these forces a name, for they live within…Read more

As human beings we are constantly confronted by the beliefs of others and those who have come before us for a variety of purposes often unknown to us. The only way to find true salvation is to continue to learn and gain experience from both the natural and spiritual worlds. This simultaneous ingestion of information can create a new state of awareness neither can match alone. Do not let mankind corrupt the purity of your soul and spirit, find for yourself the true meaning of life. There are many things…Read more