I know it has been a long time and it pains me to think about it when I can't avoid it.  I think there are times in everyone's life when their dreams take a backseat to their reality.  It isn't pleasant and often feels quite depressing, but it is an inevitability we cannot ignore.  We have to fight for our dreams, they will not just rest on our shoulders and make themselves obvious when we have dreamed long enough.  I had to come to this realization once again as I break out of this 2+ year slumber.  There were so many times I wanted to just pick up a device and post, yet for some reason was not compelled enough to actually proceed.  Well, we all know the reason...life.  I generally believe a balance between present is future is the ideal situation, but circumstances often shift the balance in direction towards life in this reality rather than worry for a future that may never exist.  This is where the battle begins to maintain whatever path you have laid to reach your dreamed future.  In some cases, as with mine, the battles consist of small, brief skirmishes with just enough gumption to cradle fatigue in a warm nest of relaxation.  As the laziness takes hold over the so few hours of relief, one must choose which side will when and then choose to fight back if you desire a different outcome.  This is my Renaissance, the rebirth of Neged, come and listen to the words that he learned from the dead.